I can't even believe that I'm 40 and after all of the stupid bullshit I put up with and the hard work, effort- the Boomer Utopia in the U.S. circa 2015 is beyond a fucking disappointment.
The economy is hell and everything like shelter is unaffordable in a corrupt, dirty drug infested shithole run over by self loathing assholes. And I'm FORCED to deal with my parents to avoid being on the streets.
I was sickened because I was poisoned because the corrupt FDA, AMA and CDC didn't do their jobs.
(rbST and rbGH are poison, Bristol Myers Squibb is run by homicidal sociopaths per metformin and the "healthcare" sector is only muggers).
I was discriminated against in the job market AND in housing with a horrible foreign name in a racist shithole with ugly nasty gross ugly racists.
I didn't ask to grow up with racists and thugs in my own family when I was held to high standards with a death grip and an iron fist.
So I can be rejected for not having an American name by some stupid Nazi tweaker bitch from Simi Valley and elsewhere.
My asshole prejudiced loser violent thuggie bully baby beating bitches blood thirsty backstabbing sycophant (parents) blamed ME for every thing that happened to me.
I was beaten because my stupid tiger mom from South Korea survived a war? She "grew up poor" so that's her excuse to go gambling and steal from people to be "generous" to her relatives. To "save face".
She was "lucky to be in America because Mao was evil" so she celebrated that by being violent.
She's a fucking liar. To this day I don't believe that Mao existed. The Korean immigrants at least in my own family use the same scripted line of bullshit. They're lying if they say only one rehearsed sentence without supporting statements.
So when I tried to do nice things for my parents or spend time with them when I was doing better- they wouldn't. They resented me. So for my mom to get in my face (grabbing my wrists and pushing my arms)- she has no to accuse me of not appreciating her because the offer was there.
They resent me. Everytime sister and I had something good going on and she had access to it, she got in the middle, made it miserable for us and ruined it. I only get one day out of the year and I couldn't get a break.
I don't care to get a lot of things because It's blatently STUPID to place the blame for everything in the world on one girl that you chose to bring into the world.
Normally she stalks me in the kitchen when I make my coffee in the morning, and I try to ignore her. Tiger crazy psycho mom acts as if she just wants a conversation when she wants to fight.
On my birthday, I let my guard down. Then she started with the emotional blackmail, etc. and I told her, "it wasn't worth it. the trouble I went through in my life- it wasn't worth it."
She flipped out, accused me of being ungrateful,etc. grabbed me by the wrists and physically started pushing me when I threatened to call the cops. This was a physical attack on me by my 60something mother. And i know better than to hurt her because she is so old.
Psycho racist tweaker trash lady is the same way- she has A LOT of nerve for someone who could be in the hospital recovering from a hip fracture for 6 years- esp after doing so many nasty drugs.
My asshole dad is the most demanding pos EVER. First, when you stick someone in a racist country with a foreign name, the racism is real. Fuck you Dad for not believing me or defending the baby that you beat up on? When I suffer for your bullshit idealism.
I didn't ask to be born and if I had a choice, I would rather NOT exist and not be a U.S. citizen. There's nothing in life beautiful enough to justify the hell I've been through. JERK. TRASH. GARBAGE!
Especially when I should have been able to protect myself from that raunchy racist tweaker landlady in Santa Barbara. You gave your white countrymen and authorities WAY too much credit at my expense and you fucking owe me. I don't care if you have a feminine name? Fucking crybaby roid raging bitchboy - oh noes, Mr. White Privileged in a white country was never harassed. You were afraid of my stupid thug sister when she attacked me in high school. You were afraid of my tweaker racist garbage methhead landlady. But you were not afraid to beat a baby or throw your own daughter out for dating someone at 19? It was Ohio, what else was there to do? Oh you just wanted to run my life so I can die on a garbage draft dodgers stupid oil war so their petrodollars can finance a dangerous real estate ponzi scheme because teh boomer ding dongs are threatened by 'new money'.
Fuck you for trying to throw me away in a war when I was really sick. To be screamed at in MEPS for stepping outside for a minute. After I was rejected.
Fuck you for forcing me to pour cement in the heat when I was sick. I wouldn't demand that of you when you are in pain. But you're the parasite asshole who only matters and nobody else. WE all exist for you and care not for anyone else. You must be so great to deserve this. White privledge must be grand. Racist shithead blood thirsty back stabbing sycophant bitch boy.
I was never the beneficiary of unconditional love and tolerance and acceptance. The biracial marraige was a false front for tolerance.
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