High School Reunion and the Evolution of Social Media

  A freed bird never looks back at the institution she was caged in. But thanks to the Baby Boomer kleptocracy and the existance of the worst designed social media ever, we're forced to. 

It was already bad enough to put up with these mean people for a family before you got stuck with some RAUNCHY racist jerks in the public school system as part of the 2% minority "model minority".
It's bad enough when they put your ugliest photo in the yearbook online.

Now I had a chance to look at it more objectively.
A lot of them were actually uglier, just not having issues with crash dieting and running a race in the picture. Whoever took that photo and decided to put it up is a sad individual and I will pray for him/her.

It would've been really cool to use the reunion as an opportunity to find and connect with your displaced friends all at the same time!  But truth be told, in my case people don't care about each other. They only care about how they measure up and it's cut throat politics the entire time!

They badmouthed the clique. They wanted to be the clique. 

Wannabes are the most dangerous life form. 

It's a stupid cycle and it's outright a thick blanket of negativity. Nobody ever told them that thriving on negativity is not power. And that negativity did a number on these people.

People need an excuse to drink and forget about the outcome in the presence of others who knew them at a better time. Fine. Whatever.

I gotta tell you. Now. It's one thing to let yourself go. It's another thing to completely trash your body.

I had to fix my habits because of health issues, it was the right thing to do. I never looked down on anybody.  I am however being judged more harshly than everybody! I was in high school as was the other half Asian girl.  The 20% black hypocrite race baiters there (some with Southern roots) never defended us.

People look down on themselves, then spite me for it.
You take care of yourself because you love yourself, not in order to love yourself.

I've seen them do stupid shit and then need a prayer circle because of it. Some need a prayer circle but don't know that they need to ask for it.

My frickin' aging mother looks better than 75% of my graduating high school class!  I'm Gen X btw.

It was country. The worst of it, dressed up and scary still. Some of these people looked like seniors and the class president/valedictorian had to drag the poor faculty out of the nursing homes to fill a few more seats for "Achievement Awards" to fill up the reunion reservations. Which was limited. So 80 people attended, out of a graduating class of 500 and half of that 80 were spouses.
Some of them were nice people? With a BMI of God Knows what happened to them. A lifetime of cheap beer and waffle house/etc. consumption? It's really sad. I almost lost an unhealthy family member recently and she was almost as bad. These people are really fucking scary unhealthy! Nobody looked at themselves or each other and thought "something is wrong here". 

Others my own age were shriveled up like a prune in the face with full on gray hair.

I couldn't tell them apart from their high school teachers.  It felt like the most dead Baptist congregation ever.

I can't unsee this. At least thanks to social media, I was spared a plane ticket to see this nightmare live.

I'm ready to move to Asia. For the fucking racist bullshit I had to put up with, at least Asians are supportive when you're proactively taking care of yourself.

Los Angeles - The Heart and Soul of Heightened Expectations, Misguided Fools and the Human Element

I can't say whether or not I love it here, I do not love the way I'm existing here.

I've sent out so many resumes.  I've been on so many interviews and came up with nothing. I'm so grateful that my parents were good to help me out but I am sitting in an empty house the day after Thanksgiving realizing how lonely I am in the middle of where I'm supposed to be.   It's cold outside and the control freak Korean landlord doesn't like the heat. He imposes his agendas and makes them into everybody else's problem, we pay for his lifestyle and put up with his problems and we get shelter.

On top of his 1003 other houserules (scribed in Hangul) in a house where Korean is primarily spoken and NOBODY speaks to each other.  I've lived with these guys for two months now and have only existed to be polite and nothing more. Nobody knows much, they're all just getting by.  And I need more.

The landlord is a reservist in the National Guard, Korean, and ugh!  Still irritatingly pompous and misogynist.  He's fighting agenda ridden  ex-wifey for custody of the THREE ill behaved wound up noisy brats and a Korean FOB ex-wifey whom he swears is extorting him for her family (and stiffing her kids on the child support to support her parents who are here...not managing their money.  But how is this even my business? Except that I'm putting up with it.)

Who have leverage in the house when the tenants are forbidden according to the rules.
I can afford my own room here and he speaks English so I put up with it.  

I'm stuck in a place in my life where I'm still single with no job and fussing with b.s.

I feel unproductive and not only invisible.  Things are not peachy king.  First of all, for what it costs and the care and effort the Koreans put into this part of town- it's disgusting.  The Koreans ARE rude. Responsible but rude.  Excuse me if I don't already speak Korean, I never had the opportunity to know it.

Of course I have yet ANOTHER dent in my car from trying to park in Hollywood.   Blech Hollywood. I've been through the gay scene.  Sometimes it's really nice but in my humble opinion boring unless you have friends there.  Or anywhere.

I didn't grow up here.

My roots are not here.

I don't do drugs.  As a matter of fact, I HATE Drugs.
I'm not in a clique'.  I'm trying to figure out what to do with myself.   In a new town.

Everyone I know anywhere is tied down with kids and even when we live in the same towns you really have to coordinate social hour.  So I'm supposed to meet people.  WITHOUT MONEY.
Only if I can find a decent church or organized event to be a part of.  Otherwise...too much.

It's not safe, especially after dark and it gets dark early.  I have NEVER in my life felt afraid, being mugged will do that to you.  My therapist (yes I have a therapist already) is off this week.  And my parents are relaxing. The other part of the family have other things going on.  Which is fine, it's better than infighting.  ANYTHING is better than infighting.

But the recruiters...everyone. Is flakey, full of b.s.,

And I do NOT want to sit in traffic forever just to have a job.

So much to consider.... the one thing that I absolutely HATE about Los Angeles is the crime mixed in with the over-zealous excessive high cost of living index-ESPECIALLY RENTS AND MORTGAGES!!!

Crime again is merely a case of heightened, unrealistic expectation but carried out in a more physically malicious manner on victims.  And the politics here apparently condones this because of the ghettotastic narco-trafficking.  That everyone else is adversely affected by.

So of course the Obama Union loving Alinsky-trotting politics is to blame the cops for what little violence the cops nationwide committed in contrast to the power abusing, drugged out, psycho druggies because cops had to shoot at a few VIOLENT black criminals.  They are forcing this garbage down our throats.

I'm a minority who suffered discrimination and I haven't inflicted malice, harm or setbacks to others.
Nobody thanked me, nobody even looked at me favorably because I have done so.  Yet I suffer because of those @$$holes and whatever is enabling them to pull soooo much $h*t.

The beautiful people are in rehab and unfortunately rehab leaves too much to be desired.

People need to come to terms with themselves and accept the fact that they are beautiful and worthy. Worthy of holding up real standards, worthy of loving and taking care of themselves.

It's not here across the board.  Thriving on negativity is not power, I don't care how much money one has.

Moved, worked, lost job, towed, Moved, GOT ROBBED!!! (lost keys/phone), stiffed --- still health issues.

etc etc....
Moved back to K-Town Los Angeles.  It looks better, like it should but it's still dangerous and crime ridden.

On my run Tuesday morning (9/8/2015) - I was chased from behind and grabbed by a really large black thug and robbed on a dimly lit street in between an apartment complex and a church.

The thug and his buddy (shorter black guy) hid behind cars parked on the streets waiting for someone to pass by.

Thuggie himself stood about 6'3-6'5 and looked like someone who could pull off a great halo act/athlete with the ability to play sports.  He wore a t-shirt, red shorts, white socks and a pair of clean shoes.  He didn't speak like a hoodlum thug, I wonder if they were his decoys.

Camelbaks are latched in the front so it's not as easy to get off as any other backpack or purse.  So he jerked me around a bunch of times trying to get the bag off of me.  Then he managed to throw me on the ground where we were still playing tug of war.  His arms were too long and he was much stronger than I am.  I'm 5'2, 100 pounds.   It would've been inefficient for me to strike at him.

I didn't have a chance to pull out my mace before they got to me.

I called the cops at a nearby Tom Tom Cafe on Wilshire a block away.

Some other black guy on crack passing by heard someone snap and he went off the deep end (like in hypnosis) about how cops were abusing power and racist and all that stuff.  While the cop was trying to write up this report on a rather scary situation for me?

I think someone else called the cops - I had a seperate incident number than what showed up on the crime map.  Yes I found myself on the crime map.

No it wasn't PR firms, drive by media, politicians, libertarians, BLM movement, Al Sharpton, DEA,
Alinskytrots, Clintonites or other who helped me.

I might be the only person who thinks that Taylor Swift is the ugliest polished flawless person ever.

The never ending spamming through the MSM wasn't enough.
A 7 figure investment is required for an act to be "discovered" in the biz, and Swifts' caucasian parents are rich thieving parasitic bankers.

I don't like Minaj due to content in her videos.

But omg.  There's something about Swift's delusions of grandeur when she can afford the marketing when people are expected to shell out $600/ticket to see her live in this recession that her parents benefitted from.

It's obviously "rare" (sarcasm) to see a skinny white chick lip sync to autotunes.

I'm glad the marketing departments are making money off of her.

But give it a rest already.  

Facebook horrors

Facebook is an interesting dilemma where I can scope out peers and such to see what they're about.

Well on the first note, I hate Florida.  Not as much as I hate Kentucky.

But worst of all I hated being perpetually trapped with people whom I have nothing in common with except that I was stuck in the same zip code as they were during high school- and Facepage keeps us tied.

First out of one "friend"'s account, I found only two other Asians out of over 1000 people.

True story.  She's in Florida.
The others who left the state of Ohio, the Kentucky ugly part of Ohio where I was trapped?

Only a few who didn't run to the deep south to double their body weight came out west, became an ass and how many minorities do they have on their account?

Everyone FROM California that I know have people of at least 4 different races on their accounts.
And that's because that's who they know.

I have absolutely nothing in common and I don't know what to do with myself in their presence.  Everyone is toxic it seems, it's all agenda ridden for, well no benefit to me.

IT sucks ass enough to be in a military where the southerners who run it over don't think well of non-whites?  OR culture clash.  Bully loser thug vs. disciplinarian thug then to be stuck in the middle where I would rather make nice with my peers and set myself up for success in life.

NO.

But I deleted this J@ckhole and his wife because we got into an argument when I made signs for Occupy L.A.

I used to work in the finance sector.
I am more qualified than their pathetic breeding parasitic @$$.  It didn't matter, they couldn't expand their tunnel vision of prejudice to accept reality and that's their problem.  The powerchannels from high school enforce the "tolerance" of these shitbags.

How funny is it that the people who go off the deep end about military not wearing uniforms for their safety is a guy who weighs literally double what each soldier, sailor and marine do; has a civilian job and "bad knees".   Nah dude.  YOU go put yourself in harms way in place of the soldier if your mouth is big enough to dribble on about it.

You're talking shit while Victoria Nuland hag is out of shape herself and will be defending the U.S. by herself when she provokes WWIII.   The troops are not that great.  They're underpaid self loathing monkies (many who I got stuck with) and a little out of shape themselves and cry like bitches when Michelle Obama urges them not to eat fried food.  After she got her liposuction on tax payers' dime.
THe Ukies that we were robbed for are a bunch of pathetic violent Nazi thugs on meth who will get their asses beaten by a 6 grader.

These neocons.
These warhawk racist methed out loser garbage.

When Nuland gets her way and puts our worn out troops (the GOOD guys) into multiple tours of the FOURTH war (WWIII) for the draft dodging oil mongering real estate flipping baby boomer beatnik flowerchildren; the U.S. is so getting their asses kicked.   The fucking U.S. "troops" are overweight, slow- thank God for weapons because that's their only way of getting out alive.

It wasn't worth it

This morning, the 4th of July- my post rhabdomyolysis pain was somehow converted to pressure in my abdomen strong enough to cause sharp pains.  It happened with the sharp increase in desert temperatures this morning.

I was cleaning house in exchange for allowance until just recently when my mom physically attacked me when I told her that my life wasn't worth it.

Why did I put up with so much, so much unnecessary negativity on top of garbage from THEIR government and THEIR stupid ugly country- so I can be sick!   SOMEDAY ALREADY HAPPENED MOM!!! Stupid.  Just because she's too stupid to understand anything her beaten baby accomplished doesn't mean it didn't happen.  STUPID baby beating bitch didn't even know what my major was when I was in school.

This definately isn't what I set myself up for in life. This isn't what I wanted. I didn't want to be unemployed, SICK and at the mercy of these people in the midst of a desert with nothing but uneducated nasty ugly tatted up methheads and no jobs.

My dad takes out his deep hatred for spoiled white women on me.

It was never about me.  It was about his stupid complex.

The misogyny courtesy of the self loathing creeps in the military was not bad enough- try being thrown at them when I was sick with horrible endometrial/pcos pain.  They didn't want to understand.

They blame the victim because it's too hard for their stupid minds to understand.   The lame stream misinformation didn't help.

The ONLY reason why my dad cared about my health AT ALL was because my BMI dropped to 17.
He and the other white STUPID Americans are so bitter if everyone isn't obese with diabetes and heart disease.  It's about his STUPID complex, it was NEVER about me.

I resent every one who pushed me to think that he was a good guy.  He isn't.

They gave me $1600 to move out when i found a "2 month" temp gig that actually lasted 3 days.
When I chose not to sign a lease in Santa Barbara for that assignment, my parents wouldn't let me come home for a few days and I lost a lot of money on that.

So I came back- they didn't give me an allowance yet still demanded that I keep up the chores.

So I kept up the chores.

Then NICELY asked my dad for money.  I was LUCKY to get a little for gas and a phone card since i'm doing job interviews....Instead of just telling me that he didn't have any, he just drug it out in the worst possible horrible way about how this is was all my fault, how I'm wrong, that I'm not trying hard enough---HE LIED.

I don't trust him.

He betrayed me.

My parents had a meal ticket for the visa sponsor parasites- stupid projecting manipulative violent thuggie JERK!!!

Then!  Then he had the NERVE to accuse me of low self esteem!

FUCK YOU DAD!!!  MY SELF ESTEEM IS JUST FINE, THE IDIOTS WHO PUT ME DOWN IN MY TIME OF NEED REALLY NEED A SELF ESTEEM CHECK.

STUPID UGLY HIDEOUS GARBAGE TWEAKER TRASH ENTITLED THIEVING AMERICANS AND THEIR STUPID POLITICAL THEATRE, BULLY TACTICS- INFERIORITY COMPLEX...

JUST BECAUSE I WAS WRONGED DOESN'T MEAN MY SELF ESTEEM IS LACKING, BECAUSE UNLIKE YOU AND MOM - I WAS FORCED TO ACCOMPLISH THINGS FOR MYSELF AND EVERYTHING I EVER HAD WAS DONE BY ME ACCOMPLISHING WHAT I DID.  Stupid twofaced bitch boy of white priveledge.

YOU'RE THE LOSER ASSCLOWN WHO HAS NOT ACCOMPLISHED SHIT!!!!!

Michelle- this lady they deal with for my mom's concessionaire- bad mouthed me to my mom when the garbage ugly stupid fat slut didn't do her own job.

Of course my traitor blood thirsty backstabbing baby beating bitch parents just took her word for it.

So I have no money and the jerks decided THEY were going to pick out my food since, like- you know they're not giving me money to buy my own.  Protein Lunas pushed up my cholesterol and my weight.  I'm stuck dodging high fructose corn syrup and hormone laden garbage in their cupboards.  I just applied for food stamps.  Maybe then I could afford some Pepto without going through that horrible episode.

My parents are the most two faced, violent thug creeps.

So much for the nepotistic coked/methed out New Trade Theory Beneficiaries of white/affirmative action privelege at the expense of our fiscal deficit

Nope, bank failures were not enough!  Being robbed for TARP wasn't nearly enough.

The oil boom inspired meth epidemic didn't fix the U.S. economy!

Glad to see that robbing taxpayers for Ukraine Kiev NAZIs resulted in a race war and hatred towards cops in fear of a police state.

I'm so glad that the bank of revolving Uncle Sam enforced quality control!
Look at the U.S. Healthcare system, Obamacare/Affordable Care act did NOTHING to fix the dangerous conflicts of interest stemming from big pharma's bribes to doctors to push drugs instead of fixing people.

Glad to see the FDA, AMA and CDC embezzle government monies instead of doing their jobs.

Glad to see Affirmative Action fix EVERYTHING!

What's next?  Elon Musk so arrogantly bragged about putting his fortune into Space X- the government put the U.S. Taxpayers into that nepotistic affirmative action junkie ecstatic wannabe money hole.

SpaceX Falcon 9 supply rocket explodes minutes after launch
A SpaceX Falcon 9 rocket exploded minutes after lift off from Cape Canaveral, Florida.
The incident followed what was meant to be a routine cargo mission to the International Space Station. 
"The vehicle has broken up," said Nasa commentator George Diller, after Nasa television broadcast images of the white rocket falling to pieces. 
"We appear to have had a launch vehicle failure," Diller said. "At this point it is not clear to the launch team exactly what happened."

The live webcast of the launch went silent about three minutes into the flight when the rocket could be seen exploding and small pieces tumbling back toward Earth. (AFP Photo)
The California-based company's live webcast of the launch went silent about three minutes into the flight when the rocket could be seen exploding and small pieces tumbling back toward Earth.
Moments later, a SpaceX commentator said the video link from the vehicle had been lost. "There was some kind of anomaly during first stage flight," he said, noting that the rocket had ignited its nine Merlin engines and reached supersonic speed.

(AFP Photo)"However it appears something did occur during first stage operations," he added, referring to the stage of rocket flight before the cargo ship would have been able to separate from the first stage of the rocket and reach orbit.http://www.hindustantimes.com/world-news/jolt-to-nasa-as-spacex-rocket-explodes-after-launch/article1-1363813.aspx

Now for some more epic and wonderful insights from the government sponsored MSM.


I never dreampt that ever in my life I would admit to being jealous of the Russians.