A freed bird never looks back at the institution she was caged in. But thanks to the Baby Boomer kleptocracy and the existance of the worst designed social media ever, we're forced to.
It was already bad enough to put up with these mean people for a family before you got stuck with some RAUNCHY racist jerks in the public school system as part of the 2% minority "model minority".
It's bad enough when they put your ugliest photo in the yearbook online.
Now I had a chance to look at it more objectively.
A lot of them were actually uglier, just not having issues with crash dieting and running a race in the picture. Whoever took that photo and decided to put it up is a sad individual and I will pray for him/her.
It would've been really cool to use the reunion as an opportunity to find and connect with your displaced friends all at the same time! But truth be told, in my case people don't care about each other. They only care about how they measure up and it's cut throat politics the entire time!
They badmouthed the clique. They wanted to be the clique.
Wannabes are the most dangerous life form.
It's a stupid cycle and it's outright a thick blanket of negativity. Nobody ever told them that thriving on negativity is not power. And that negativity did a number on these people.
People need an excuse to drink and forget about the outcome in the presence of others who knew them at a better time. Fine. Whatever.
I gotta tell you. Now. It's one thing to let yourself go. It's another thing to completely trash your body.
I had to fix my habits because of health issues, it was the right thing to do. I never looked down on anybody. I am however being judged more harshly than everybody! I was in high school as was the other half Asian girl. The 20% black hypocrite race baiters there (some with Southern roots) never defended us.
People look down on themselves, then spite me for it.
You take care of yourself because you love yourself, not in order to love yourself.
I've seen them do stupid shit and then need a prayer circle because of it. Some need a prayer circle but don't know that they need to ask for it.
My frickin' aging mother looks better than 75% of my graduating high school class! I'm Gen X btw.
It was country. The worst of it, dressed up and scary still. Some of these people looked like seniors and the class president/valedictorian had to drag the poor faculty out of the nursing homes to fill a few more seats for "Achievement Awards" to fill up the reunion reservations. Which was limited. So 80 people attended, out of a graduating class of 500 and half of that 80 were spouses.
Some of them were nice people? With a BMI of God Knows what happened to them. A lifetime of cheap beer and waffle house/etc. consumption? It's really sad. I almost lost an unhealthy family member recently and she was almost as bad. These people are really fucking scary unhealthy! Nobody looked at themselves or each other and thought "something is wrong here".
Others my own age were shriveled up like a prune in the face with full on gray hair.
I couldn't tell them apart from their high school teachers. It felt like the most dead Baptist congregation ever.
I can't unsee this. At least thanks to social media, I was spared a plane ticket to see this nightmare live.
I'm ready to move to Asia. For the fucking racist bullshit I had to put up with, at least Asians are supportive when you're proactively taking care of yourself.
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