Ognuno per sè e Dio per tutti – Everyone for himself and God for all
Tu duca, tu signore e tu maestro – words addressed by Dante to Virgil in Inferno II, 140Aiutati che Dio ti aiuta – Helf yourself and God will help you
My horribly mean and venemous Tiger Mom would excuse her stupidity with the words, "human nature".
Trash. First I was a meal ticket for the Visa sponsors.
Then I was robbed of the human element.
Once my sister drug me into a shoplifting spree. We were succumbing to early influences in a neighborhood with wild kids in a trashy town basically because we had nothing else. It was the summer after my Freshman year, she was going into the 8th grade.
So after we got caught- the only smart thing my parents did was send us to private school. That's after they beat us, stuck me in the basement, chopped off our hair---barred us from life.
“Treason is very much a matter of habit, Smiley decided.”― John le Carré, Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy
“Our power knows no limits, yet we cannot find food for a starving child, or a home for a refugee. Our knowledge is without measure and we build the weapons that will destroy us. We live on the edge of ourselves, terrified of the darkness within. We have harmed, corrupted and ruined, we have made mistakes and deceived.”― John le Carré
Now a racist tweaker trash landlady I was stuck renting from in Goleta because the boomer trashtards robbed us to keep supply low for the benefit to only fuck us over- I HAD the perfect opportunity to go after this piece of garbage...
I HAD the perfect opportunity for having hard drugs on the property when she was renting it out (Santa Barbara cops are the tweaker defense league, they don't know the difference between criminal and civil law but they'll violate the 4th Amendment for minorities! )
So because my dad- who inflicted intent of emotional and physical distress with violent outburst attacking me at times because I was doubled over in cramps- the two faced draft dodger trying to throw me away in war for "medical insurance"--- which the draft dodging warmongering boomers sent this generation to for survival work....
But he- (being influential on me because I'm in a position of need) won't let me go after her for due damages because he's afraid of retailation.
After ALL of the horrible UNNECESSARY SHIT that he and my my mom put me through.
I was beaten alive for stealing $40 worth of stuff, a tweaker trash racist thief uses the government to hoard $400 from me...to say the least. On top of that horrid treatment.
Gringo pussy bitch and my vitriol backstabbing mom were both nowhere to be found in my defense.
I ASKED MY DAD ONCE HOW IT FELT TO BE A
BLOOD THIRSTY BACKSTABBING SYCOPHANT.
Traitor. Pussy. Roidraging Bitchboy.
He had THE NERVE. THE AUDACITY to bitch and moan because he had a "girly" name - to me.
After he gave me a foreign name in a RACIST country. And beat us to "respect your mom's culture" when her cultural cohorts from South Korea FOBs ("fresh off the boats" that still dont' understand a word of English)got American names to escape job/housing/academic discrimination.
HE thinks that there's no racism because he hadn't been racist.
Congratulations Bitchboy, you did what you were supposed to do. After imposing this UNNECESSARY discrimination on us, he's too fucking scared to deal with white/black over Asian discrimination.
Beware of the narcissistic ideologue, and the narcissistic control freaks. Both are dangerous people.
“Ideologies have no heart of their own. They're the whores and angels of our striving selves.”― John le Carré
“There was nothing dishonourable in not being blown about by every little modern wind. Better to have worth, to entrench, to be an oak of one's own generation.”― John le Carré, Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, SpyMy dad is both the narcissistic ideologue and the narcissistic control freak. At one time he was a raging venomous member of the patronizing, useless ecstatic wannabe Sick Cult of John Lennon worship.
He actually believed that the Beatles were agents of non-materialism as the inebriated John Lennon preached from his penthouse in NYC, yacht, private jet.... the boomers are so stupid and we are totally fucked because they have the voting majority. Their voting and fiscal influence also defies the Theory of Natural Selection.
Which way you ought to go depends on where you want to get to...”― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
The trouble is that I was robbed, stiffed and slandered. Trapped, pigeon-holed. When the banks and the Caucasian baby boomer trash didn't call Clinton on taking their Social Security monies out of it's own account and putting it in the US Treasury where it "balanced the budget" when he sold it to foreign lenders.
THEIR elected Clinton failed to get the Chinese to remove China's barrier to the U.S. financial sector in 1995 during the Multilateral Investment Agreement when he passed NAFTA with them and Deregulation.
Fast forward, all investments were in counterfeit UNCOLLATEARLIZED "collateralized" debt obligation backed teaser rate loans for the ugly white boomer trash to use to flip property with, at taxpayer expense-so they can rob people in need of shelter.
The techies put up so much red tape to block new corporate developments to protect themselves from competition while they outsourced accounting jobs to India when the U-6 unemployment rate in the SF Yay Area was 14%. Only AFTER the lazy inebriated shitbag draft dodgers sent Gen X and beyond to multiple tours of THREE wars for a SURVIVAL JOB. The trouble is that I was robbed, stiffed and slandered. Trapped, pigeon-holed. When the banks and the Caucasian baby boomer trash didn't call Clinton on taking their Social Security monies out of it's own account and putting it in the US Treasury where it "balanced the budget" when he sold it to foreign lenders. THEIR elected Clinton failed to get the Chinese to remove China's barrier to the U.S. financial sector in 1995 during the Multilateral Investment Agreement when he passed NAFTA with them and Deregulation.
Fast forward, all investments were in counterfeit UNCOLLATEARLIZED "collateralized" debt obligation backed teaser rate loans for the ugly white boomer trash to use to flip property with, at taxpayer expense-so they can rob people in need of shelter.
The techies put up so much red tape to block new corporate developments to protect themselves from competition while they outsourced accounting jobs to India when the U-6 unemployment rate in the SF Yay Area was 14%.
Only AFTER the lazy inebriated shitbag draft dodgers sent Gen X and beyond to multiple tours of THREE wars for a SURVIVAL JOB.
Fast forward to 2008- I was just starting to make a living wage and use my creds, until the economy collapsed.
I was temping in a completely different field for a SURVIVAL job and living in a motel room.
The SF Yay Area was chock full of golddigging idiots from everywhere- the worst thuggie gold diggers were from the Midwest/South. And California Homers. The LOSERS who stab you in the back for a $12/hour job.
People squeal so much about Asia. Asians aren't entitled. Unlike the GARBAGE U.S.A. - it's not dangerous to be non-rich in Asia. They're not blockbusting and they don't shove nasty yucky racist junky racist tweaker "culture" country music down your throat to let your guard down in a humble hood.
“He knew how intelligent men could be broken by the stupidity of their superiors, how weeks of patient work night and day could be cast aside by such a man” ― John le Carré, Call for the Dead
My parents taught me this.
They started with giving me a foreign name in a RACIST shithole aided by RACIST military.
Next comes throwing us naked in a dark closet for 3 hours after a beating, for being 2 years old.
Behaving isn't hard, these idiots needed a meal ticket as Visa Sponsors and a fall guy.
It ranged from public beatings in grade school for minor things, on top of being discriminated against by bullies (kids ARE mean!)- they humiliate us in front of others to "prove a point".
They robbed me of my own existance, and when I was finally able to support it (like the backstabbing patronizing condescending do-gooders told me to do)...the ground fell beneath my feet.
I was no longer allowed back into my soul, my life or my existence. Well if I even had one- being WHAT I am instead of what I've done.
I sat there doubled over in abdominal pain that the cruel doctors refused to treat--- being tormented with the explosive rage by the very people who used power-not to carry the team forward... but to ruin me. One lady was at MEPS after I was rejected for these cramps. The other was my Dad. The ASSHOLE KNEW that abortion was legal.
My life was ruined when he kicked me out of his house for having a boyfriend...it was my 19th birthday. It was Easter, April 3rd, 1994, the ground was kissed with snow.
What was the prize?
“With people you see in them what you already know.” ― John le Carré, Absolute FriendsTHey disappeared. They went home "back East" to their NORMAL families.
Otherwise, NOBODY knows me. I can't afford myself.
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